I hear your voice so clearly in my dreams… every single one of my dreams is of you. Cuddling me. Touching me. Loving me.
My life will be so lonely without you. You brought all the life into it. Music. Laughter. Love.
2:30am. Every night. I’m wide awake. Crying. Missing you.
I’m scared to be so alone. Yes EVERYONE wants me to go hang out do things with them. But it’s just been you and me. The pandemic pulled us tighter together. We became a unit. Team. Working together. It can be the most mundane thing like grocery shopping. Putting away groceries.
Who can I gossip with now??? You telling me about relationships within your friends group. You and I marveling how our relationship was so much better than theirs… But also listening to what goes wrong in a relationship and making sure to NOT be those people.
I was able to download all of our texts… I can’t believe you kept them all!!! It makes me fall in love with you , with us. Over and over again.
We fell in love so fast. We went from zero to 60 in a blink. Did we both proceed with caution? We sure did. But our chemistry was always undeniable. I’d pull you and then you’d pull me. Then you just kept pulling me… I’m sorry that didn’t shift again. If you’d have survived. It would have shifted. I would have been the one to lead us. But you were comfortable guiding us… guiding our relationship.
It’s funny though. I know you found me on Facebook may 5th 2009. You friended Margie soon after. Those messages!! Tsk. Nothing pg rated even but she was trying to get at you. 🙄🙄 always so blind. Like with Shallen. But you were and were always meant to be mine. Doesn’t mean I’m not insanely jealous of something 14 years ago. If you were alive today… I’d be losing it. But then again I’d never read or go through your messages. Sigh. I’ve always trusted you. I never had reason not to. I know you love me. I see you in all of my dreams now.
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