Wednesday, October 18, 2023
Oct 18th
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Oct 16th
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Sunday, October 15, 2023
Oct 15th
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Oct 14th
Friday, October 13, 2023
Oct 12
Monday, October 9, 2023
Oct 9th
Saturday, October 7, 2023
October 7th
September 24th
September 25th
I know something is going on with him... I get the depressive mode of his bipolar... then a call from his in laws. Not that I mind... hell if Allan's mom was alive I would jump anytime. Not going to pretend I do not miss Allan's mom. I swear my life would be so different if she were here. I know I would not have had to reach out to Jay at all, that's scary to consider.
Friday, October 6, 2023
Oct 6th
Finally friday :) Alexis... my heart breaks for her. Part of me finally is connecting with her and I am so grateful for that not the circumstances... gah... not that. No one should have to deal with what she is dealing with. Jay is so wonderful with her... she doesn't feel like a little sister but more of a surrogate daughter. I really hope she does not go back to this guy. I just know the stats... and they are not good.
So I do not mind sharing Jay for the next 2 weeks... I am so proud of him. We will help her as much as we can and even against Jay's wishes if we can sneak into the house to get her things... I am worried he will destroy her stuff and hurt her puppy. I know, I am self projecting but I can't help it. I am glad he got some real sleep today... less wrinkles in his forehead and that vein in his forehead is non existent.
Thursday, October 5, 2023
Oct 5th
Wednesday, October 4, 2023
Oct 4th
Tuesday, October 3, 2023
October 3rd
Monday, October 2, 2023
Oct 2nd
Well today is the day... he starts work. He is nervous and working through it. I can't imagine what this is like for him. I know he is going to be great at it. He is so good with people and helping people. I am even envious of that skill but at the same time, I know my acumen for technology is something that I prefer and I really do not want to work with people. I like just being me... doing what I want when I want. I am not sure why he is going down on me so much lately... as if I would complain! I love it and his mouth on me... I am trying my best to distract him as much as possible, not sure if I am even doing anything at all. 2 more hours before he leaves... handed me a huge stack of bills which one I did not bother counting and two he gave to me for a massage and chipotle??? Way more than I need and I appreciate it. I think I would rather chipotle and target though. Pick up a few things and snacks to entertain me while he is gone. I will go home on Wednesday... plan Disney now WITHOUT jessica. Am I complaining? NOPE
OMG I got the damn interview... I made it to Chipotle... even Target :) All by myself. I feel like I at least accomplished something don't get me wrong, I love being with Jay but I do still love my independence too. Maria texted me... wanting to go out to dinner again with Chelle and Tuyen. I would actually like that. Not sure how that will work if I am working in Benecia... OMG I cannot believe I am interviewing! I want that job. I want to be here... I WANT TO BE WORKING HERE... I will figure out the cost and all that crap later. I will be here... I will be with him every day.
Sunday, October 1, 2023
Oct 1
He wants to come home from work and I will be here... I think that is the sweetest thing I have ever heard from him. I cannot believe it is already October... How did time move so fast and yet so slow at the same time? We talked a lot last night and I let myself open up more... its still not easy for me. But I am trying as much as I can. He did mention that I jump a lot less at night and I am more relaxed. He is laying next to me sleeping... jerk... lol... we just had sex and I am so awake now... No way am I taking a nap. I am amazed how much better its getting between us. How is that even possible? I love every way that he touches me. Actually I am kind of amazed at how I react to him. We are definitely getting better at this. Today has been great.