How did I get here??? Well he decided to surprise me at my house… Red roses in hand. Took me to drop off that phone… lunch at el novillero and went to visit his aunt Jessica.
Back to my house. Watched tv. I fell asleep. Finally. Woke up to an asthma attack 🙈.
I had been smelling the smoke a few days but it finally got to me. Or has been for a few days.
He brought me home. Bought me dinner and fucked me so good my body is still responding, the next morning.
I’ve never felt more wanted, desired and loved than this moment. When he said he’d been thinking about me all day, it made my entire body so turned on. Every part of me screaming for his touch. Those light tugs on my hair turning my insides into melted pools of desire. I’ve never been more turned on by someone in my life.
When he’s inside of me… it’s truly the most intense. My body so focused on more. More of him. More of us.
Giving myself to him completely and the fact is. I’m his. Completely. There isn’t one part of me being withheld from him. There’s no worry. There’s no concern. There are no fears. There are no doubts. I’m jumping right into this fire.
As much as I’m waiting for the bottom to fall out, that feeling is going away. I’m so sure about him. I’m so sure about us. I’m so sure that I’m with the person I was always supposed to be with that all of that time I was holding back… I’m just not anymore.
Zumba! Pakko 🥰 I’ve missed him so much. He was my best friend for so long… and then… I just got so discouraged and depressed.
Seeing him really made my day. Of course spending the day with Jay was even better but I know I need other outlets too. Pakko has always made me laugh and cheered me up. He also kicked my ass in class today!!! He played one song I knew and everything else was new. Thank the gods no samba but lots of salsa and bachata. I’m so grateful to see some regulars from before too. Today was perfect. Waking up next to Jay. Zumba with friends. I miss Jay right now sooooo much. I can’t believe I’m sleeping without him but I’m going back to him tomorrow.
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