Promise

 It is easy to tell you the promises I want to make...

I know that showing you that I am willing to keep those promises is what you need. 

Yesterday you asked if I made the reservations for Sausalito, my intuition is screaming that you want to cancel that weekend which means you are probably going to cancel the weekend of your friends getting their chips. As sad as that makes me, I understand on some level why, but tell me now and not later. I overthink things and as much as I tell myself I am overthinking this, a part of me is also saying, well that's what happens when you say things and hurt someone. 

I promise to hold myself accountable for how I treat you, I can't promise I will always be perfect or I won't sometimes say the nicest things, I am human and I know I will make mistakes. However, I will recognize when I make those mistakes, not make excuses for my mistakes but learn from them and grow from them. 

I promise to be the person you want. I am going to do whatever it takes because you matter to me, in every way possible. I can't imagine my life without you and I do not want to regardless of what my therapist says. 

I promise to take care of myself first and not push aside my own health issues in deference to yours.