At least I am. I feel less anxious and nervous around him. I think this is the first time I’m totally relaxed with him.
I can’t believe how much I love him. Seriously. He says all the right things at exactly the right time I’ve never felt more safe, more loved, more protected, more cared for than with him I feel amazing with him, in every single way. If this is what the rest of my life looks like, with him? I’ll take it.
I can feel his love all the time. The amount of effort and how he tries so hard to anticipate my needs. Allan tried. He did. He just wasn’t good at it. If there was a food I liked, I’d be eating it for months on end. Which was sweet and sometimes worked but mostly it didn’t
JnJ. Jay liked that too. Said he’d name his next business after that, us. I love the watch band I made for me, signifying us.
He’s sleeping now. I am refusing to nap. My sleep schedule gets worse and worse with that nonsense. And I slept really well last night. So no. I’m staying up as long as I can.
Dinner was great. I loved where we went but we were there so early. We came home and did everything :) and then we talked until late at night and then snuggled in and slept. Side by side.
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