May 25th

 I think I have accepted that I will never, not miss you. 

I am dreading your one month anniversary but to be honest, the 10th of the month is the real one for me. The last time I saw you, held your hand. The last time you said I love you, last time you called me mama. 

There is not a single moment of that day I do not regret. 

I wish I had stayed I wish we had talked I wish so many things...