Commitment

 I want to spend the rest of my life with you. As your best friend and life partner. Not just or only your girlfriend. You are the rest of my life. I don’t need marriage or to have your last name. We’ve done that before with others. We know what we have is not only special, and unique but so intense the fire between us can't burn out. 

Right here right now. I promise to be yours Jay. 

I have spent my entire life, trying to fill the holes in relationships. Knowing a relationship could give me everything I need. I knew this because you did that. Our relationship filled me in every way possible. I was protected, loved, cared for and all of my needs were fulfilled. 

When I walked away I thought I would be happier somewhere else, I spent decades realizing that what I wanted did not exist in anyone else, because what I need to be happy, is you. 

There will be no one else… I will be faithful to you. To us, until death. 

You take my breath away. You hold my heart in your hands. You make me excited to wake up every morning and knowing that you love me soothes my fears at night. 

I promise to tell you what I need, and to let you be there for me. I promise to let you take care of me and protect me. I will provide you everything you need and more, I will take care of you and protect you. 

If something happens to me before you, you have my permission to move on. I want you to be happy. 

I want you. I want us. I fell in love with you when I was only 21 and I did not know how important you were to me then. Almost 30 years later, the impact you had over my life proves how important you were in my past, my every day now and my future. 

I love you Jason Bruce Martinez